I think the spelchecker randomizer program is enbedded in my AUTOEXEC.BAT cause my stupid freind did it that way. Mabye one day ill fix it--if I ever break down and buy Windoews 95 support. Yes BUY it cause the so-called "Help" files that come with Windoes 95 is, to quote granfather "ABUOT AS USEFUL AS MY THIRD SOUPPLEMENTARY TEAT NIPPY".
My familys embarassed but even more PISSED for me makin the whole famly look stupid and plus airing private problems on the web for the whole world to read.
Granfathers especialy pissed cause PART of the "Hercules/Zena incident" I wrote abbout in my last update--(where 2 certian people got into some peuerile 13th Centurey B.C. rollplaying and someone got a heatcoil burn on his gristly asscheek)--was fitcionalized. But i wont say WHAT part was enbelished. But I WILL say this, that what i wrote about that WASNT true was LESS enbarassing than what REALY hapenned--and what I left out entirrely was WORST of all.
Here is part of a copy of a letter he sent to my folks and to his lawyor. I wasnt suposed to see it but the temp file was floating on the hardrive and I found it.
Im prohibbited from listing his email adress. Youl notice this letter is in his famous pompuos-ass tone of voice--WHIch is always IN ALL CAPS BECAUSE HE IS SHOUTING, DAMMIT:
}Date: Mon, 13 Jan 1997 18:21:00 -0400
}From: XXXXXXX [XXXXXXX@prodigy.com]
}Subject: Re: WALTER -- WHAT OTHER SUBJECT IS THERE?
}WALTER'S FORAY INTO CREATIVE WRITING ON THE
}COMPUTER NETWORK MAY HAVE BEGUN AS A SELF-SERVING
}PROJECT BUT IT IS NOW LONG AN EMBARRASSMENT TO HIM
}AND HIS FAMILY AND CLEARLY MOSTLY TO HIM.
}THE DELIBERATE JUVENILE SPELLING BLUNDERS ILLUSTRATE
}HIS COMPULSION TO DRAW ATTENTION TO HIMSELF. IT IS
}WITHIN THIS CLOUD OF PITY AND SELF-CENTEREDNESS
}THAT IGNORANCE DESCENDS TO BECLOUD HIM EVEN OF THE
}PERCEPTION OF THE FACT THAT THOSE WHO ENTERTAIN
}THEMSELVES WITH THIS FICTION LAUGH NOT *WITH*
}WALTER BUT *AT* WALTER, WHO ENJOYS WORLDWIDE FAME AS
}IMMATURE IMPRESSIONABLE YOUNG MAN WITH THE SPINE
}CONFIDENCE OF A LIMP RAG AND THE DECISION-MAKING
}ABILITY OF A WIND SOCK AT THE EDGE OF AN
The whole letter is HUGE like 19K. It realy hurt my feelings and I cryed allot. I have truly nothing to say exept that in many ways the old basterd is right.
People dont relize Walter Millers Home Pahe is NOT a form of comedic entertanment. Atleast not primarily.
I admit write it partley for self-agrandizement and partly for a need for finnanciel independence. More on that in a second.
But MAINLY my writing is a form of therappy to deal with emotional problems includin but not limoted to dysfunctional family situatoin, abusive relatoinships, poor selfesteem, dellusions of exagorated self-inportance and haughtey atitude.
Plus a lack of being assertive and inobility to stand up and be a man and take charge of my life. Its all about matturity. Plus Im a codeppendent. I tend to over-nurture. Im a nurtourer. Admiting it begins the recovery process.
I have a low atention span. Im unorgonnized. Plus I regretfuly admit with shame also that I need people who dont know me to pay atention to me. And Those who DO know me I seek there approval and aceptance.